Collared by Daddy

It was 3 months ago today (the 10th) that Daddy 'officially' collared me. *smiles all wiggly* Not just my avatar, but I think the best real-life long distance collaring that could have been done *smiles wide* He chose a collar online, sent me the money, and I ordered it. I LOVE IT. It has three rings on it (ohhhh the possibilities), its black, and it looks great on me. He had me get on my knees, he shared what giving me the collar meant. (mental note to see if he remember what he said exactly) I was so overwhelmed I remember that it touched me so much. Feeling it go around my neck. Hearing and feeling Daddy's words in my ears. I teared up and cried a bit. I dont know if he heard me, perhaps a bit. hehe. 

My gosh its gotten late.

Daddy knew that I didnt need a physical collar to feel collared by him. I gave myself to him. I had one moment in time when I chose of my free will to submit to him. To give myself to him. I am his to teach, to love, to use, to tease, to train, and so much more. From that moment on, I had no choice. I am his. I have no choice BUT to crave him, to need him, to adore and love him. He's honored me with accepting my gift. He shows his love to me on a daily basis. I've always said, its not the bunch of dozen roses that leave a lasting impact , it's the 12 single roses given.

I wish that I were the girl in this pic, that he was the man. Being his submissive, being his..... *sighs deeply ans smiles softly* I can't get over how freeing it feels.

I love you, Daddy. I find myself speechless so often when I think of you.

Today's Kiss for Daddy 7-6

Daddy will be home soon. That means soon I can hear his voice. I can feel my heart racing and my nipples hardening just imagining it. The way he whispers in my ears. The way he does that sort of breath/sigh.... MMmmmm I know he's comfortable and I'm pleasing to him. I need to please him, I HAVE to... I have no choice, do I.

Today's Kiss for Daddy 7-3

Daddy, the few words we exchanged meant the world to me. Thank you for taking the time *smiles so wide* I am so grateful for you. Just the few moments we shared has lifted my spirits.

Never forget how much you are appreciated. :)  Life and the people around us don't always let us feel that. But I hope not a day goes by that I don't let you know and feel that you are loved and appreciated. You are wanted and needed, but not for what you can give me, but for what you share with me and simply, for who you are... all the sides of you. All the facets of you. You are my One, my friend, my confidant, my love, my mentor, my Master, my Daddy, my One.

I adore you.

Today's Kiss for Daddy 7-1

Well, my day has been shitty. But I still wanted to post a kiss pic for Daddy. Yay, its 8pm, I dont think that's too early for bed, a good way to end the fucking day NOW. I'm tired. Emotionally and physically, I'm tired... numb.

Fuck it all and suck it up. It could always be worse.

*sighs*

This pic... I love to stare at it, imagine Daddy. 

 *sighs and stares at it*

I imagine, with the water so still, he is moving his lips slowly over her neck, she's got her legs wrapped around his waist, perhaps his cock impaled into her pussy. *sighs*

I adore you, my One.

Last nights Task & Today's Kiss for Daddy

I'm in a weird mood today. I call it my 'safe mode'. It's like I'm sorta neutral? I don't sense any ups or downs. I haven't had my heart beat hard for good or bad reasons. Perhaps I'm tired, perhaps it's just be being out of balance. This 'mode' isnt me. I'm generally in good spirits. I like to smile, I like how smiling affects others. So.. perhaps its a good thing I write this. I dont like feeling so distant from Daddy. I miss him terribly *sighs feeling my eyes burn a bit*

Today's Kiss... I have seen this pic before. I think I've sent it to Daddy via email. It has so much passion and shows his power, I can almost feel her knees weaken at his touch *smiles and sighs softly*

Last night I completed part of my daily tasks, an orgasm, by cumming in my computer chair while watching a chick on porntube (or some porn site) going down on a guy. OH.. MY.. GOD.. she was freakin' incredible. Heather Brooke was her name. She looks so young. But she sucked his cock sSOooo well. I IMed Daddy that I wanted to be hypnotized so my gag reflex wouldn't affect me when I suck cock. I would love to take Daddy's cock deep like she did.

As I was saying, I was at the computer, watching the videos, watching her take the long cock deep. I had my pink vibe held down on my clit, shorts already down around my feet, as I lay back and slip into the scene. The vibe can be so intense I have to actually keep it to one side of my clit. Its just WAY too intense to hold it on it or have direct connection. I've done it, with Daddy in voice, he's pushed me to hold it there as long as I can. Of course I end up screaming and my body shuddering. Its just SOOO intense!!! I've been driven to tears with its intensity right on the clit. ((Hearing Daddy whisper encouragement and direct me to keep it there longer makes me sooo freakin' wet))

The man on the video was just about to cum as I felt my orgasm climbing. I imagined the girl being me, and the man Daddy. Looking up to him as I wiggle my head down his shaft, shoving his cock a bit deeper. I came sooo hard. That vibe has a way of making my muscles contract and hold a bit longer with each wave. One time I touched my post-orgasm clit with the vibe when removing it.. HOLYyyy shit that made me jump!! HAhaha

I was a good girl and able to go to the gym as well. I didn't do a major work out as I was still a bit tired from my tummy issues earlier in the week. I was on the treadmill for 30 minutes and went through some of the weight machines, upper body. Today I've been able to eat a bit more and tonight intend on doing a High Intensity class at the gym. :)

I actually feel better writing. Amazing how writing (and recalling an orgasm) can brighten ones spirits. :~}

I miss Daddy so much. *sighs feeling my throat swell* I've tried not to think of missing him today, stay in my safe mode, but he's such a huge part of me I cant deny that I miss him. Yes.. some days we don't contact each other that much, but there is just something about knowing I'll be lucky if I get a couple sentences a day for the next couple weeks. It makes my throat swell up. If you read this Daddy.. I know we only have this moment. But.. forgive me for being selfish and wanting you for all my moments. *swallows hard and blinks back the burning tears* I love you.