Last nights Task & Today's Kiss for Daddy

I'm in a weird mood today. I call it my 'safe mode'. It's like I'm sorta neutral? I don't sense any ups or downs. I haven't had my heart beat hard for good or bad reasons. Perhaps I'm tired, perhaps it's just be being out of balance. This 'mode' isnt me. I'm generally in good spirits. I like to smile, I like how smiling affects others. So.. perhaps its a good thing I write this. I dont like feeling so distant from Daddy. I miss him terribly *sighs feeling my eyes burn a bit*

Today's Kiss... I have seen this pic before. I think I've sent it to Daddy via email. It has so much passion and shows his power, I can almost feel her knees weaken at his touch *smiles and sighs softly*

Last night I completed part of my daily tasks, an orgasm, by cumming in my computer chair while watching a chick on porntube (or some porn site) going down on a guy. OH.. MY.. GOD.. she was freakin' incredible. Heather Brooke was her name. She looks so young. But she sucked his cock sSOooo well. I IMed Daddy that I wanted to be hypnotized so my gag reflex wouldn't affect me when I suck cock. I would love to take Daddy's cock deep like she did.

As I was saying, I was at the computer, watching the videos, watching her take the long cock deep. I had my pink vibe held down on my clit, shorts already down around my feet, as I lay back and slip into the scene. The vibe can be so intense I have to actually keep it to one side of my clit. Its just WAY too intense to hold it on it or have direct connection. I've done it, with Daddy in voice, he's pushed me to hold it there as long as I can. Of course I end up screaming and my body shuddering. Its just SOOO intense!!! I've been driven to tears with its intensity right on the clit. ((Hearing Daddy whisper encouragement and direct me to keep it there longer makes me sooo freakin' wet))

The man on the video was just about to cum as I felt my orgasm climbing. I imagined the girl being me, and the man Daddy. Looking up to him as I wiggle my head down his shaft, shoving his cock a bit deeper. I came sooo hard. That vibe has a way of making my muscles contract and hold a bit longer with each wave. One time I touched my post-orgasm clit with the vibe when removing it.. HOLYyyy shit that made me jump!! HAhaha

I was a good girl and able to go to the gym as well. I didn't do a major work out as I was still a bit tired from my tummy issues earlier in the week. I was on the treadmill for 30 minutes and went through some of the weight machines, upper body. Today I've been able to eat a bit more and tonight intend on doing a High Intensity class at the gym. :)

I actually feel better writing. Amazing how writing (and recalling an orgasm) can brighten ones spirits. :~}

I miss Daddy so much. *sighs feeling my throat swell* I've tried not to think of missing him today, stay in my safe mode, but he's such a huge part of me I cant deny that I miss him. Yes.. some days we don't contact each other that much, but there is just something about knowing I'll be lucky if I get a couple sentences a day for the next couple weeks. It makes my throat swell up. If you read this Daddy.. I know we only have this moment. But.. forgive me for being selfish and wanting you for all my moments. *swallows hard and blinks back the burning tears* I love you.