An aching need... my Daddy... a mushy moment

This pic, I saw it and felt my head spin and my pussy throb. Every day I dream of kneeling before Daddy. I picture it in my head, my body reacts, my heart races, my eyes water, my face flushes. I'm not sure if I'm ashamed to say this or what, but I'm a 40 year old woman and I don't think I've ever wanted something so badly. It's such a new feeling, to NEED to kneel. I don't want to kneel to just anyone. Hell, my virtual abilities as a Mistress are very good. Many a man has knelt before me in the Virtual World (and sounded as if they did in the RL *winks*), professed their devotion to me, begged me to take them as theirs. I have knelt in the past, but its never felt like this. This man, my Daddy, my Master... he is an extraordinary man.

I've never been with him in RL, but I feel as if I can trust him with my life.... huh.. wow.. that's some heavy stuff.

Anyway... back to the pic. It makes me ache to kneel before him even more.

Earlier I felt uber mushy with Daddy. I do my best to say in the moment. I'm not perfect. In fact, many of my thoughts are of the future, a future with Daddy. The mush moment happened because the thought of not ever being with him crossed my mind and  *damnit I'm tearing up* and i felt, feel my heart hurt and my stomach twist.... OHhh.. he's online.. brb...

Well, its been days since I started that post (above). I'm truly lucky to have Him in my life. If I never get to kneel before him, well "Life is what happens when we are busy making plans." But I'm most definatly a better woman for having known him.

Daddy's Back!

Daddy is back from his trip! *smiles and does her wiggly happy chair dance* I feel as if a fog has lifted, the sun has risen, my lungs are filled with fresh oxygen. I could go on an on! *smiles and sighs* I've missed him terribly.
I've never been so happy to hear someones voice. I heard him say "hello babygirl" and I started crying. It was almost surreal. He had sorta slipped into surrealism. But, hearing his voice, hearing his breath, feeling him... *sighs deeply again*... my body sprang to life. My mind spun, my body reacted, I felt as if I were 'me' again.
When I talked to Daddy earlier in the day, via text chat, he told me that he wanted me ready to chat by a certain time. I was to not wear any panties, I was to wear a skirt or some loose pants, and I was to be wet. (Goodness I love it when Daddy directs me.) The wet pussy part wouldn't be a problem at all. Ever since I saw his little online indicator light up, my pussy has ached. While he was gone, I ached thinking of him, I'd look at his pic and my heart would leap and I'd ache. I DID ache when he was gone, but  *sighs softly* my pussy aches so much more intensely when he is 'here'.

RL finally permitted time to chat. I also was instructed to have a dildo ready to be used. I had that and a vibe as well. I ended up in the bedroom and felt like I was floating speaking to him, hearing his voice in my ears, feeling the affect he has on my body. I ended up cumming for him, dildo in my pussy, my hand rubbing my clit, Daddy's clit. But.. that's another post :)

I am such a slut for Daddy. I crave him so badly. The draw I feel to him, it's unlike anything I've ever felt. I think one of the things that makes me smile the most, I like him :) Not just love him, but genuinely like him. He makes me laugh when I'm down. We have things in common, not just the lovely 'pervilicious' side hehe (Daddy's word)  I can easily 'see' us just sitting on the couch together, be it watching a movie or reading. I can see how being in silence in his presence would be wonderful :)  Peace and serenity isn't always exciting. Sometimes boring is lovely :)

Collared by Daddy

It was 3 months ago today (the 10th) that Daddy 'officially' collared me. *smiles all wiggly* Not just my avatar, but I think the best real-life long distance collaring that could have been done *smiles wide* He chose a collar online, sent me the money, and I ordered it. I LOVE IT. It has three rings on it (ohhhh the possibilities), its black, and it looks great on me. He had me get on my knees, he shared what giving me the collar meant. (mental note to see if he remember what he said exactly) I was so overwhelmed I remember that it touched me so much. Feeling it go around my neck. Hearing and feeling Daddy's words in my ears. I teared up and cried a bit. I dont know if he heard me, perhaps a bit. hehe. 

My gosh its gotten late.

Daddy knew that I didnt need a physical collar to feel collared by him. I gave myself to him. I had one moment in time when I chose of my free will to submit to him. To give myself to him. I am his to teach, to love, to use, to tease, to train, and so much more. From that moment on, I had no choice. I am his. I have no choice BUT to crave him, to need him, to adore and love him. He's honored me with accepting my gift. He shows his love to me on a daily basis. I've always said, its not the bunch of dozen roses that leave a lasting impact , it's the 12 single roses given.

I wish that I were the girl in this pic, that he was the man. Being his submissive, being his..... *sighs deeply ans smiles softly* I can't get over how freeing it feels.

I love you, Daddy. I find myself speechless so often when I think of you.

Today's Kiss for Daddy 7-9

I adore you my One. I miss you terribly.

Today's Kiss for Daddy 7-7

Daddy should be home soon. I miss hearing him. I've felt better the last couple days, Daddy made my heart race and my body ache a bit in emails. He knows how badly I crave him. I love being a good slut for Daddy.

I have fantasized about this pic, before I'd ever seen it *smiles wide* I've made Daddy's pussy cum before with my hand clamped hard on my mouth as if he were keeping me quiet so I wasn't heard when I cum :)

Today's Kiss for Daddy 7-6

Daddy will be home soon. That means soon I can hear his voice. I can feel my heart racing and my nipples hardening just imagining it. The way he whispers in my ears. The way he does that sort of breath/sigh.... MMmmmm I know he's comfortable and I'm pleasing to him. I need to please him, I HAVE to... I have no choice, do I.

Sweet release for Daddy

*smiles and sighs with a bit of a drunken grin*

Daddy just emailed me this : "Hey sweetie. Drop to your knees and make Daddy hard. Cum for Daddy. Now."
 
Needless to say I did JUST that *smiles wide* I went into the bathrom, knelt on a towel by the bathtub, sitting on my feet I rubbed Daddy's clit until I came VERY hard. I felt like such a good dirty girl for him. My left arm across my nipples, hand on my right nipple, forearm on the left. *MMmmmm

I imagined His standing over me, his cock out, before my mouth. I heard him in my mind, as my thighs were on fire, my feet numb, I came hard, clenching my eyes, holding my breath, feeling my face flush from the orgasm and lack of oxygen.

I came and almost collapsed over the sde of the tub, letting the blood go back to my feet, feeling my pussy twitch a bit still.

I love being Daddy's slut. I love being his girl. Even after cumming, just thinking of him makes my pussy ache again.

Cumming for Daddy

I was a good girl today. I came so good for Daddy.

I was at work, writing him, and my mind started to wander. I was in the bathroom and I started IMing him on how I was going to cum for him today. I intended on being in the bathroom, on my knees, his pen in my pussy. I had the image in my head, I could feel the sensations in my pussy. I was also telling him about something I imaged...

This is me IMing Daddy... no *sighs* he wasnt there, but he'll get it later, and maybe read this. *grins and licks my lips as I feel my nipples harden*


12:00 PM
Daddy.. today I will cum like a good slut for you. I'll cum in the bathroom, on my knees, your pen in my pussy.
 I am your fuck toy, I NEED to be that. I have no choice. I had this image in my head as I was peeing earlier.
12:01 PM
(i think of you often then because when I pee sometimes I will feel it in my clit))
 I imagine myself laying on a bed, your inspecting me. Someone else was there. They weren't touching me, but stroking himself as he watched you.
You were whispering to me.
12:02 PM
"babygirls my sweet fuck toy, isnt that right?"
 I imagined laying there on my back with my legs parted as you were inspecting my wetness with your fingers.
 I imagined nodding and feeling myself slip into you, whispering back 'yes Daddy'
12:03 PM
You whisper "Do you have a choice babygirl?"
  I whimper and shake my head as my hips shiver and say louder "No DADDY! I dont have a choice!"
  my thighs jump because your fingers graze against my swollen clit.
12:04 PM
Daddy... I love to fantasize about you.
  I open your pictures, I look at them through drunken eyes...
  Imagining your there.
  *sighs feeling that delicious throb of Daddy's pussy
12:05 PM
 mmmmmm Daddy I do need you.
  I need to feel your cock gag me
12:06 PM
I need to feel your hand smack my ass as your hips thrust your cock so deeply into me that I scream in pain from the depth, hitting my cervix.. making me yelp as the air escapes my lungs.
12:07 PM
Daddy I need to feel my breasts against your thighs as my hands are bound behind my back.. breasts against your thighs because my mouth is being used as a fuck toy.
  Daddy.. I want my tummy issues healed, not so much for me, but I want my ass ready for you to deflower.
12:08 PM
I want my ass to be ready for your cock, your finger, or your plug.
  Oh god Daddy... I'm aching so fucking badly now...
  I need to touch myself..
  your pussy
  OOoooooo
12:09 PM
nice puddle forming at the entrance to your fuck hole.
  Oooo Daddy
  gets Daddy's pen from her purse
  Daddy I need to cum
  so badly.. so badly for you
12:10 PM
opens Daddy's pics
  sighhhhss sfeeling the ache more
  oh god daddy
12:11 PM
(slipped in pen.. standing at desk)
  sits .... fucking me with daddys pen
  whimpers oooh daddy
12:12 PM
oooo daddy.. a co-worker is in a office about 10 feet from me..
  i'll have to be very quiet
12:14 PM
sighhhsss daddyyyy
  20ft
12:15 PM
ohh daddyy
12:16 PM
daadddyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
  ohhh fuck daddy
12:17 PM
*sighs a longgg happy breath
12:18 PM
 Daddy.. I think i was a good slut for you. I was very quiet.
  not even a loud breath.
  mmmmm daddy i needed that so badly
12:19 PM
Thank you so much to tasking me that.
  You know whats best for me, more than I do usually.
  I do feel better. I think its been days since your pussy has released.
12:20 PM
Thank you Daddy
12:21 PM
I feel 'me' being your slut, your girl.



*smiles wide*
Daddy.. I love you so much.

Today's Kiss for Daddy 7-5

I adore you Daddy.